Friday, 20 May 2011

The 6th



HAPPY 6TH MONTHSARY TO MY SAYANG :) <3

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.. ITS BIGGER AND BIGGER EVERYDAY :D

THANKS FOR YOUR LOVE, CARE AND TRUST. MWAHS

AH3111

Monday, 9 May 2011

i love you, Hafiz! :D all the best for your exam later.

Sunday, 17 April 2011

Monday blues

As alwayssssssssssssssssssssssss!!! Monday is a very boring day in a week! and and tomorrow's gonna be our final LNC assessment which is INTERVIEW!! it is like OH MY GOD OH MY GOD!! haiyaaah! miss told us to read local newspapers starting Monday till today (Sunday) coz she's gonna ask the headlinesssssssssssssss to us! and she asked us to remember allllllllllllll the ministers' names coz AGAIN she gonna ask usssssssssss in the interview and AGAIN it is like OH MY GOD OH MY GOD!! i just have my time to check our updated menteri kabinet and luckily i found one in the internet alhamdulillah. GOOGLE you make my life easier. THANK YOU! fuuuh~ i hope tomorrow will be easy and please be nice to me yeah..

well just for everyone's information.. this is our new Brunei Cabinet Ministers 2011-2015.

NEVER SAY NEVER!!



Im officially one of JB's fan now hahaha. Bieber Fever! :p :p but im not that B fever :p hehehe im okay okay sahaje :D im still fully cant live without my Hafiz <3

okay talking about NSN.. I did enjoy my afternoon movie with sisters and NSN made my day. <3 and what i just realised after watching it was Justin has a very beautiful eyes, he's cute, he's AINT gay.. watch this movie you will hear his real voice.. he's adorable and all i can say about his fans is so DAMN FEVER BIEBER! hehehe and JB treated them nicely and he tried not to disappoint them.

simply cute and talented boy! All the best for your career Bieber :)

and to my drug dealer.. I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE YOU SO MUCH SAYANG!! <3 MWAHS

Friday, 15 April 2011

I LOVE YOU

sayang i miss you so much :)

Ak Nur Hafizhurahman Pg Hamzah. I LOVE you sayang

Saturday, 9 April 2011

Absent. Test. Sick!

Today is economics's last phase test but i didn't managed to come to school due to tummyache :s

i miss him so bad.. so bad very bad!! does he miss me like i do? :s hmmmm :'/ hope he does.

Sunday, 3 April 2011

A promise in the dark :(

Listen

Can't count on you most of all when I really need it
It's the simple things that you do, really hurt my feelings
The more I try, the more I'm starting to see it
This can't work anymore, than you believe it

Goodbye may come as a shock
Even though I love you a lot
I've given every breath I've got
Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe

Add how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals, and it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals, and it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

Listen

I just don't know what the problem is, what the deal is
Was I there too much, did I move too fast, I couldn't see it?
All these promises are probably how you deal with it
I'm tired of hearing you say your innocent

Don't think I forgot
Because I really didn't, who cares if you're lying or not
I've given every breath I've got
Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe

Add how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals, and it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals, and it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

We all make mistakes
Sometimes we do desperate things
What does it prove? NOTHING
And you never do nothing wrong

Then what took you so long, took you so long
Cuz I keep, keep hanging on, keep, keep hanging on

Add how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals, and it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals, and it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

So don't promise me
So don't promise me

Sunday, 20 March 2011

The 4th month! :)

Sayang! Happy 4th Monthsary to us :D I LOVE YOU SO MUCH :)

Baby!!!

I know for a very short time, we have so many stuff in life that we don’t really understand, for the fact that we never get along together.. we have so many discrepancies, so many hesitations, questions and doubt not only for our relationship, but as well as within our self.. but no matter what it takes, for this short period of time, i learned to love u so deep.. learned to forgive you when u crashed my heart.. learned to accept what you’d done.. learned to dream about future with you.. learned to sacrifice my pride, learned to smile when I’m sad, to sleep w/ sadness in my heart and hope that tomorrow everything’s will be alright.. to pray that you’ll not gonna say goodbye.. to hope that whatever argument were having, you’re still there, holding on.. to wish the impossible thing in life.. i learned to feel the true love.. but all of those, i never learned how to love you less in every waking day of my life.. thank you so much sayang for letting me feel those kinds..

Happy Monthsary sayang and wish us both a happy life and strong relationship together.. and more months and years to come with fulfillment and harmony together.. i love you so much baby and will love you more in every waking day of my life.. and i am so sorry for all those aches and disappointments I’d done.. and thank you so much for everything my beloved..


Hafiz, I love you. Always be and always will <3




Friday, 18 March 2011

Meaning of our names :D

what is the meaning of our name?

Adibah means civilized, cultured and knowledgeable.

Hafiz means keeper, guardian and preserver and Rahman means gracious.

and this one i found it at one of the blogger explaining the meaning of Nor Adibah :)

"You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you’re so lucky, you don’t really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You’re sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You’re always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can’t handle you. You’re very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you’re likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are usually the best at everything … you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic “Type A” personality.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It’s easy to get you excited… which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don’t stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.
You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.
Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you… especially in business and academic.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You’re a strong person."

what do i think? :D

all i can say that its perfectly true :) most of them are me :) amazing! magic! :p hehe

and to my sayang!! i love you okay? if you read this post i hope you still love me after reading whats Nor Adibah is :p

Waiting :)

I cantttttttttttt wait for August.. i cant wait for those stuffs to arrive :D kenapa mesti ahir atu kan? :/ ngalihku tunggu eh. inda jua ku sabar ne!! but yeh yeh whatever it is, i have to wait and be patience. Sabar itu separuh dari iman. If i buy awal pun nda jua guna.. so yeah August tah saja.. berapa bulan lagi kan tu? =.= 5 bulan ka? adoiiiiiiiiiii!! entah2 kelamuan tah ku kali udah kan meliat.. hmm hmmm be positive. inda tuuu :D hehehehehe so yeah!!! AUGUST IM WAITING FOR YOU!!! sudah sampai nanti mesti be good okay? :D

and to my sayang.. I love you baby and i miss you so much :) get enough rest and eat proper meals since you will be very2 busy this week and next week... Adibah sayang Hafiz always :) Take care sayang.

Weaknesses

Hmm. what i think now? what i feel? what am i doing? :/


Just so "YOU" know! Your eyes, your smile and your voice are my weaknesses! :( Please and please just lemme go now :( dont you ever stare at me anymore coz i dun wanna fall for you again :( Im sorry if im being so arrogant nowadays but i really didnt meant that. I just dun want us to be that close like before =.= its sad but we have to.. i knew everytime im down you will always be there asking me whether im okay or not and i miss those moments when i always have a chit chat with you everynights, asking for any advice, fight with you and tell stories and burst my tears to you and you ended it up with calming me and give me motivations :'( seriously i miss it :( maybe we're not meant to be together and at least we learn something from there.

Im not ignoring you nor avoiding you I just need some times to make sure everything is alright. my heart, my feelings and my love to you thats all past. Let bygone be bygone. I love him now and let me love him saja. Thats all i want now. Dun give me those looks coz it could kill me slowly.

:'/ Goodnight

Last day of 1st term schooooooooooooooooooooooool!! :)

Assalamualaikum people!!

Time: 1.40am :D

im awake amazing! hehehe.. what have i done yesterday? well let see..

Di skulah.. nothing much to do marketing no class then 9am-10 ish ada scholarship briefing :D was having a good motivation from the presenter but but yeahh its good if he came to us earlier like maybe when we were in year 1 so we could do much better than now pfft!! Targeting to get 2.5 IS NOT that easy!! you must get 6 Distinctions and 6 Merits!! and oh my god!! i already get P in one of my overall Year 1 units and it means that im not QUALIFY to apply those scholarship :(((( hadoiii sadih eh!! okay nevermind lupakan ajerr.. ada rezeki then i will get some other time :D and talking about our afternoon classes it was AWESOME becauseeeeeeeeeeee i wasnt in both BS and Eco class :D the student councils had a meeting with Sapphire group regarding the Appreciation and Graduation Night. I miss this school event so much :( my intake didnt get the chance to organize this thing coz due to Business Project bla bla bla~~~ pfft~ but well at least ahirnya ada jua so hehe alhamdulillah hopefully menjadi :D we was there from 2.30 till 4.30 woah!! hehehe some of the SCs went out early but some of us have to stayed coz ada lagi yg kan dibincangkan :D nice ending school class but my other story :'( its a lil bit ermsss menyedihkan..

I wanted to spend my last day with him but i just cant :/ my last year's was better than yesterday's. i just think my last day wasn't went properly as i wanted.

hmmmm.. :/ disappointing! night all.

Thursday, 17 March 2011

Thursday 17 March 2011

Assalamualaikum :)

Hello hello.. its 3 am now and im not that sleepy :) was about to print out my cv and all the lnc's works but pfft my printer's being itchy bitchy.. i dunno whats wrong with it.. it has full ink of cartridges but it says that the ink was completely finished! macam apa! banggang x printer ani.. buka tutup balik2 guyang2 segala ink ani inda jua mau detect-detectnya eh. panat! membuang usin saja membali kau ani!! tangan ku pun macam mechanic sudah.. esh!! wish i got that special powr that could fix everything! eshhhhhhhhhhhhhh! menyasakkan jua banar eh.. lnc g awal2 pagi ne. haishhh!!

now see i got nothing to do. if this lovely printer do his work then my job will become very2 easy. i'll print it out then go to sleep. now what? i cant even sleep thinking of this thing.. karang lagi sekolah haiyahhh.. well talking about school. today will be our last day of 1st school term and tomorrow our 1st term of holiday is START!!! :D hmm im not that happy tho :p haha we're given 2 assignments and maybe ugama assignment is coming as well so it makes our assignmnts are 3. and too many homeworks to finish it up and revise revise revise =.= it is equal to stress stress stress

by the time sekolah buka.. all assignments mesti di hantar... 2 more phase tests are waiting and results from previous phase tests. and and and much more important our final exam !! its in MAY!! ya ampun.. time flies so fast.. less than how many months we will be send out for our attachment then graduation..

choosing places for attachment isnt easy as we see.. to choose better place and enjoy yetwill gain experience from that place is much more memaningkan.. jadi to all technical students out there! better choose ur attachment place awal2 unless you got someone to help you and acompany you there or else you will be paning and nda tau dmna kan dipilih. haishh!

bah anitah saja eh.. this printer inda jua mau. i better go to sleep now saja eh. nada hasil cemani ani

Wednesday, 9 March 2011

Wednesday, 12:57am, 9 March 2011.

i feel so so tired today but yeah i managed to make myself fully awake whole night :) congratulation to me but unfortunately i didn't make any benefits to myself =.= hahaha well at least i can release my stress a bit :) by not thinking of any homeworks and so on.

Talking about school, we were given our 2nd marketing assessment. Luckily sir made his decision to make the due date on 28th rather than the original date which is on this 17th March so yeah thanks sir. Well thats a good news maybe?? haha when there is a good news there is always a bad news. pffft yeah.. right when the school re open last assessment will be given for both HRM and marketing =.= and right now the HRM question is still pending so by anytime we will receive the assessment question and im sure the due date must be as same as marketing.. ohh its killing us. dun think that Technical school is that easy.. well IT IS NOT!! not actually.. maybe some people will see our certificate as a one of low level?? maybe.. who knows.. but deep down you actually dont know what we learn here.. aduuuui.. ok enough talking about school...

Since i didnt sleep after school time. then i spent time with my sister.. we had yeah its like jamming session. where my sister sang and play guitar while im playing keyboard.. but at the end of our jamming i was kinda interested to learn playing guitar.. and oh myy.. i didnt expect learning guitar is much more easy than learning piano/keyboard. woahhh at least hehe.. i managed to play some songs. Alhamdulillah but dun expect that sing to be exactly perfect hahaha. it wasnt!! ;p :)

Okay now talking about my lovelife, i miss sayang so much :) whenever and wherever you are i will always loving you and missing you every second of my life :) <3 I love you sayang. We're kinda busy with our own assessments and things lately so yeah we will talk and spend time together maybe next time ok? :) im sorry. missing you everyday and night?? woah its really really a burden for me. how i wish that you and i are together as we wish.. hehehehe but i know we just cant :)

Adibah loves you more than you do, more than you know and much more than you think :) Take care always sayang. Mwahs <3

Wednesday, 23 February 2011

Its raining now. Not the weather but my heart.

It was very awesome lovely Tuesday but it STOPPED suddenly and i realized something wrong is happen now.

And I was very sure that you're IN LOVE with me AND AGAIN i stop being confidence when i saw all those things are still with YOU!!

:'(

Maybe my love for you isn't so strong till you cant even forget her... Its not enough. Not enough for you to make you forget her when you actually already in love with someone.

you always make my night and my mind busy.. night busy with crying and my mind busy keep on thinking are you really love me???

Keep on doing whatever you want. If you still cant forget her then FINE. Go with your own world and i'll go mine. im sorry if i do control your life or maybe i don't understand you..

its just i cant even stop thinking about you and im bloody hell DONT KNOW and DONT WANT TO KNOW what will happen if im not with you anymore.

:'(
:'(
:'(
:'(

Friday, 28 January 2011

Missing him

Hafiz.. i miss you so much sayang :'(

its so killing me bah... missing you is my biggest problem.. i hate to face this reality.. :( how i wish you are next to me every time i miss and need you :/

H31 i love you so much

Sunday, 9 January 2011

Me, You and Her

Life is not complete without love but sometimes love brings us trouble, jealousy, hatred, pain, curiousity and many more. and here all i want is fresh air and fresh mind to refresh my memory..

I want to stop all my little thoughts which always bugging my mind every night and then :s.

i believe that you love me now and i trust you for sure. its just im afraid that you still looking and waiting for her ,maybe you inda realise yang sebenarnya you actually still ingatkan ia, sayang ia, rindu ia or anything or is it just my imagination? :s seriously im afraid to know the truth but thats the real thing..

all i want is you to forget her in your life and i want only me in your mind and soul :'( please do help me to do that.. i need your cooperation.. i dont want to find anything yg ada arah sayang related with her lagi :( no i dun want.. it hurts me sayang... it shows that she is still in your mind sayang.. :'(

its enough for me to know her name, saw her pictures and to tell you the truth is i just found out your blog and her blogs... i hate myself :C i was looking for something but i dun know how i found that blog tia pulangggg! :S hishh!

Im sorry sayang... I really really love you and please i need your cooperation and your help. i need you to be with me. JUST ME!! Lets start it and forget everything. i want you to start your new life with me saja.. only me.. coz in me there is only you sayang.. no more him in my life and i want only you can occupy my heart, mind, soul and me. read me ONLY YOU SAYANG..

i keep on telling myself to stop thinking about that but i just cant sayang.. i need a prove. i need you to convince me that. convince me that you will not miss her anymore, you will not think about her anymore, you will not love her ever again and just me and only me that you want and need now..


I love you sayang...
I LOVE YOU Ak Nur Hafizhurahman.

My 2010

Talking about 2010 hmm too many memories to remember.. bad, good, happy and sad.. its all mixed up.. im not going to tell you all about my 2010 here but i just wanna share my special date here which is on November 20th, 2010 :D

20th November 2010 is my unforgettable date i would say :) this is the date when i decided to accept him as love of my life :D and yes i love you for who you are sayang and i still love you :)

Happy New Year everyone

its been a long time i didnt update this blog :s i kinda miss it tho

well Happy New Year to everyone... may this year brings happiness, bless, prosperity and success in our life :)

Tuesday, 16 November 2010

Where am i?

I am stuck in the middle of this situation :s oh my god please help me!!

i really cant concentrate on my work... i have to submit it by Thursday and this Saturday i got another test and i dont prepare anything yet...ya Allah!!!

why these two boys come at the same time :( im so clueless and stuck..

My mind is on him yet my heart is with another him :( i dunno how to decide.. i really dont wanna lose this feelings for both this guys :( but i know i have to choose one only :(


p/s: I listen to ur songs everytime i miss you.. I know its just a dream to be with you.. yet my heart belongs to you man!! :'(